As I walked into the office the other morning around 7:05 a.m., I was surprised to see a meeting going on in one of the large staff rooms. Whoever it was in the room subsequently closed the door as I walked by, and I assumed it was because they were holding some uber-secret soiree that they didn’t want early-birders to interrupt.
I mentioned this in passing to a co-worker via my company’s chat and she indicated it was probably the weekly prayer meeting. Turns out, she was right.
But here’s the thing, are you ready for “the thing?” The Thing is, I’ve never been invited to this group and I wonder why. I imagine that they try and keep it hush-hush since it’s on corporate grounds and since they do it so early in the morning and all. The fact that they closed the door makes one think they aren’t too big on advertising the fact that it’s going on.
Then, one has to ask, if it’s so hush-hush, why bother at all? Do you follow? If you feel it important enough to “gather in his name” as the Bible instructs, then shouldn’t you also believe that, “If anyone is ashamed of me and my words, the Son of Man will be ashamed of him when he comes in his glory and in the glory of the Father and of the holy angels. (NIV Luke 9:26)
It’s possible however, that their being so secret has everything to do with not getting in trouble with “the man” and that I’m just being petty.
Anyway, about thirty minutes later, I saw the group disperse and it was interesting to see the attendees. Most of them I would have expected to be there–or perhaps I should say–I wasn’t surprised to see there, but there was at least one that caused me to raise an eyebrow. Seeing the collection of Sr. Management involved, it made me wonder how many people were in the meeting because they really felt a desire to be there, or because it seemed like a politically expedient thing to do.
Maybe I’m just projecting my own tendency to worship in private on others who don’t actually share my personal preferences, but it seems to me that if a person is driven to publicly meet and discuss spiritual things in the office-place, that you’d at least have a clue about their spiritual life based on their office practices. I’m no saint, but I also don’t try to look like I am, though I fully believe in God and I pray on a semi-regular basis, etc.
The funny thing is, I find myself in a place that I imagine a lot of non-believers find themselves when around believers–wondering if I’m somehow being looked down upon, and perhaps even discounted a bit because I’m not one of them. It’s an interesting place to be–almost as if I’d suddenly announced that I’m gay (I’m NOT! Oh, but there’s nothing wrong with it!) and having to deal with the fallout. An interesting turn of events to be sure.
Question: Any of you ever find yourself in this situation? Did you find that “they” treated you differently, even if you don’t consider yourself different from them and the only reason they might is because you haven’t gone public with your beliefs?
Help me out. I’m curious.