About every three months or so, I hit a wall; emotionally. Being a guy, perhaps I hold things in. I mean, I don’t cry at movies; I don’t get upset and vent on a box of chocolate covered maraschino cherries (though GOD I’d love to!); and I don’t really talk to anybody other than my wife about anything substantive (yeah, I really have no friends…it’s sad…but who has time…and money to pay babysitters?)
So I guess three months is the “fill line” on my stress-o-meter. I’m nearing it again, I can tell.
Here’s some examples:
- I sort of vented to my boss about a random person in our company who wanted to start “reviewing” a communication piece I routinely publish. Oh, I also bluntly stated to this person, who is a level above me, that I wasn’t going to budge on her “suggestion” and that she could take it up with my boss if she didn’t like it.
- The boys, who have generally been really good lately, have been REALLY getting on my nerves for doing things that one would normally expect of a 4 year old and a 1.5 year old.
- That a-hole teenager at the gym benchpressing as much as me nearly pushed me over the edge!
I mean…the NERVE! I bet his friggin’ football coach is slipping roids in his gatorade!
- And if I come into the office one more time and find my network cable missing, or that someone has sat at my “cube of heavenly existence” and moved all my “stuff” around, I’m gonna raise some hell!
But the problem here is that I don’t know how to fix it. I do what most “experts” say to do, which is “exercise.” I exercise till every joint in my body hurts. In fact, I probably over do it. So what’s left?
If you’re a parent, you know you can’t just get up and leave. Walking out and going on a weekend getaway by yourself isn’t viable; either familialy (word?) or financially. Punching holes in walls only leads to more work for yourself and Klonopin makes you gain weight, which is the LAST thing I need.
So come on folks. Out with it. Save me $300 on a therapist. Tell me, how do you cope?
Oh, and you lurkers out there…you know who you are…time to get engaged!